Suck It Up, Buttercup!

Day 28. National Blog Posting Month.

So, the other day, (was it yesterday?) I talked about sleep. If I were to take a self photograph right now, this is what I’d look like:

I am freakin’ tired. Baby J is sleeping in his crib now. I put him down at 6pm when the older two kids went to bed. Baby slept from 6-9:30pm. I could have slept then too, but let’s be realistic, it was dinnertime and I made a pretty amazing meat sauce for penne (photo is not mine) and husband found a highly rated wine at a great price, so there was no way I was going to miss out! The wine was so good, he went out today and bought another three bottles.

At the 9:30pm wake up, I fed the baby, changed him and put him back to bed. Then I went to bed and fell asleep around 10:30pm. Baby was up at 1:30am for a feed; then 3:30am for a soother placement; then 4:45am for a feed and finally 6:15 am for a soother placement. Husband got up for that last soother placement while I slept. An hour later, the older two kids were awake. I couldn’t physically get out of bed, I was so tired, so husband got them dressed and fed and I slept until 8:20am.

We spent the morning shopping while the kids were in school. I tried to nap this afternoon but it just wasn’t happening. I feel like I am a walking zombie. I know I could get a can of formula and have husband do a nighttime feed but I am just not there yet. I lent the breast pump to my girlfriend who needs it more than I do and frankly, I am relieved it’s not in the house. I had to pump with my eldest and it was a nightmare. I still have some mild PTSD from that experience and have no desire to ever pump again. So, until baby is on a bottle (which will likely happen about a month before I go back to work), I am just going to have to …