Um…   Shit just got real, yo!

I’ve lost count the number of times I’ve run 5km, but suddenly I feel like “Oh my God, what if I can’t finish?”

I never ran track or took part in any group/team sports.  I did some dance and ballet as a kid and played the piano, that’s about it.  I remember getting really nervous before a piano recital or exam (I made it to grade 11 Royal Conservatory).  Before most exams in university and medical school I would need a bathroom visit at least once or twice before walking into the examination room.  My running friends say they have “tummy” issues all the time before a race and I’ve suggested they take an Immodium the night before a race to calm the nervous bowel.  I have no idea if that’s going to happen to me. Should I take one just in case?

I’ve been getting emails daily, sometimes twice a day, from the race coordinators and every time I see it in my inbox, my heart skips a beat.  Why am I doing this?!  I’ve got nothing to prove.  Is it going to be fun or am I going to be a ball of nerves? I have no idea what to expect!

Gah!

I just want to wake up and have it be March 2.