Just A Daughter

I’m really trying very hard not to feel like a complete idiot right now.

I attended another appointment with my parents today. It was a follow up with the physician that made a diagnosis last year of minimal cognitive impairment (MCI).  Since we were seen there last year there’s been some worsening of his memory and behavior and we were assessed by a different neurologist to rule out a structural brain disease called Normal Pressure Hydrocephalus. It was at that appointment a few weeks ago that the diagnosis of Alzheimer’s dementia was made.

At today’s appointment I sensed a bit of push back from the geriatrician as to why we were seen at a different clinic.  After explaining, I then asked her a few questions about disease progression and whether starting medication last year might have helped. I didn’t think I was being critical but when the physician turned to me and asked, “Well, you’ve read the literature, right?” I felt like she went on the defensive. I said I had, (and I had read about minimal cognitive impairment last year!) she asked me what I remembered.

Um, excuse me? This wasn’t a teaching moment. I’m not her resident. I’m asking as a daughter, not a physician.  I couldn’t believe she was treating me that way, and in front of my parents.  I don’t care if she was pissed off that we went to another hospital and got a diagnosis, she had no right to treat me like that.

I was honest and said I couldn’t recall. She then answered my question. 10-15% of patients with MCI progress. Sadly my father is one of them. And starting medication earlier would not have been indicated. In fact it could have made things worse. As she related the information to me it started to come back. Still, I felt stupid for not remembering it and even more stupid for asking the questions.  All I can see is my dad and his diagnosis. I should have the intellectual capacity to look clinically at the literature and apply it to my dad but you know, I can’t.

I’m just his daughter today.

I debriefed with my colleagues today and they agreed that it really wasn’t appropriate the way the specialist treated me. I have to get over my anger because this is the person who will be caring for my dad. I have to find a way to put it behind me. But right now, I can’t.

 

 

2 thoughts on “Just A Daughter

  1. She isnt the only geriatrician. I wouldnt stand for anyone speaking to me in that tone. She should understand that you are upset and should be able to sympathize, not be reactive and snarky.

    As a physician, she should also understand that people are entitled to second opinions. She should be glad that someone was able to assist you and your family, she shouldn’t be upset with who that was.

    Why would you ever feel like an idiot? You didn’t go into that meeting as a consulting physician, you came in as a daughter and should have been treated that way.

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