Monday Accountability

In an effort to blog more often I decided to make Mondays my accountability day, specifically in regards to the weekly long run. So, every Monday from now on, I will post about the long run I did the Sunday before.

Now, I am by no means a great runner but over the past two years I have seen the benefit of incorporating a weekly long run into my schedule.  One of my major goals for 2017 is to run more consistently (ideally injury free!) and maybe, just maybe run a spring half-marathon.

So yesterday was the first Sunday that I felt well enough to start the long runs again.  It was only 6 km but it was enough.  I started out slow and kept it slow – for me that’s a pace between 7:40-8:00 min/km. I was able to stick to my 1 km run: 100 m walk for most of run and only stopped to jog on the spot for a couple of traffic lights.

It was very cold, -9˚C without the wind, and with the wind, well if felt more like -15˚C. I bundled up with a balaclava, a toque and a fleece neck warmer.  I had winter running pants on underneath windbreaker track pants, a long sleeved winter running top with a short sleeve as well.  My fleece lined running jacket rounded out the outfit and I was off.

Overall it was a pretty decent run. I kept warm for the most part and the sun shining certainly helped.  I completed 6.1 km in 47:37 for an average pace of 7:43 min/km.  Not too bad for the first long run of 2017.


And best of all, the legs today feel great!

2017 – with a vengeance.

2017 came in with a vengeance, for me at least. New Years Eve day started out with my three-year-old up chucking his applesauce then spiking a fever for most of the afternoon. While the older two kids were on their way to my in-laws, it was touch and go whether the baby would be staying home and changing our NYE plans or going to my mom’s for the night. Thankfully with some Advil and Gravol, he perked up enough to be sent there for the night.

As my husband and I prepared to go to our friend’s place for the evening, I had a fleeting thought of “What if I’m the next one to get hit with the stomach flu?”  I forgot to mention that my eldest got hit with the stomach bug two days before.

The evening started out great. We brought all the fixings for a cheese fondue and it turned out great but shortly after starting to eat I felt the distinct uncomfortable rumblings in my lower stomach that signaled something wasn’t right.  Sure enough, an hour before midnight I was hugging the porcelain god and wishing I were dead.  The stomach virus that gently hit my children assaulted me with a vengeance.  Minutes after midnight I was lying in an upstairs spare bedroom shivering with chills. So much for my new year’s eve plans.

Why is it that the holidays bring on such horrible illnesses? This is the second year in a row that my family has been plagued with a stomach virus over the holidays. I myself have had more of these bouts of illness in the last 5 years than I can remember for most of my life. Is it the kids?  Are they the germ factories?

It’s downright awful.

Even after spending almost the entire day in bed yesterday and sleeping close to 14 hours I am still not 100% today and feel like I could be on the verge of intimacy with the porcelain gods again.  As I write this I’m lying in bed with three children arguing for my attention.

Time to sign off …

Adios, 2016

It’s time to reflect on the year that was 2016.

Career

I started a second job at a private health care facility this summer.  I still have my family practice but I needed something more, something different, and I’ll be honest, a large part of the reason was money.  Our government is destroying pubic health care and I feel paralyzed to do much about it.  One the one hand, they are asking physicians to “Choose Wisely” in ordering tests, but on the other, they are vilifying front line workers for creating huge wait times for appointments, tests and surgeries. The right hand has no idea what the left hand is doing.

So, I decided to branch out and see how the other half lives. Private health care is comfortable, timely and compensates me well for my time. For the most part, I am regarded highly by the clients and am appreciated for my work.  This isn’t always the case in my family practice. Sometimes even doctors need their egos stroked every once in a while.

I don’t plan on leaving my family practice any time soon. I am committed to the patients I have and will strive to do my best for them as I always have.  But they have to be held accountable for their own health care as well.  Seeing multiple doctors at walk-in clinics for the common cold is a strain on our health care system and is entirely necessary.  I know you don’t feel well and can’t take any more time off work and for that I’m sorry, but you can’t hold up the emergency department, or see 3 different physicians at 3 different walk-in clinics, then come to see me the next day because you didn’t trust those physicians’ judgement.  And people wonder why there’s no money left for public health care?  If the government instituted a user fee for non-emergent visits to the emergency department, you better believe wait times in the ER would plummet.  People will start to think twice if they are charged $50 up front for walking in to an ER expecting to see a doctor.

But what do I know?  I’m just a doctor. I’m not a politician or an activist. I’ll leave the politicking and the activism to my colleagues who are far better suited for it.

Death

Wow, this year sucked on the celebrity death front.  In no particular order:

  • David Bowie
  • Alan Rickman
  • Glen Frey
  • Nancy Reagan
  • George Kennedy
  • Patty Duke
  • Anton Yelchin
  • Garry Marshall
  • Gene Wilder
  • Alan Thicke
  • Prince
  • Debbie Reynolds
  • Carrie Fisher
  • George Michael
  • John Glenn
  • Florence Henderson
  • Harper Lee
  • Rob Ford
  • Muhammad Ali
  • Kenny Baker
  • Leonard Cohen
  • Janet Reno
  • Zsa Zsa Gabor

On a personal note, the loss of my medical school classmate, fellow mother, runner and friend has left a particularly dark note on 2016 for me.  Her loss was a devastating blow to all those who knew her, to her young children and her parents in particular, but also to the medical community at large. She was a shining star and I have no doubt was going to do a great many things had she lived.  As her parents learn to cope with their new life without their daughter, as her children grow up without their mother, as her patients find new care with other physicians, we must always remember her and say her name.  Elana.

Now is the time for justice. Justice for Elana. Her murderer must be punished and I hope it will come soon, for her family needs closure.  We all need closure.

Domestic violence never touched my life until a month ago.  It won’t soon leave me. I will look for it every day in the eyes of my patients, in their words, in their gestures.  Something good must come from Elana’s brutal death.

Running

What can I say? 2016 kinda sucked on the running front.  My total for the year was 614 km. The year started off with a slump. My dad was hospitalized, it was brutally cold and I lost my mojo.  It took almost until March before I found my stride again, only to be sidelined with injury again.  Shin splints affected me most of the year.  I tried to cross-train with weights and stationary bike but it didn’t seem to help that much.

I did still manage several races this year – 2 x 10K, 1 x 16K, 2 x 5K, 1 x 8K.  No personal bests or personal records for me.

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Ahead to 2017

My goals for 2017 are pretty straight forward.  Run more than last year!  Stay healthy, fit and injury-free.  I would also like to try for a spring half-marathon and if the running gods are with me, a fall half-marathon as well.   I have been on a healthy eating plan with my husband for the past two months and will continue this well into the new year with the aim of losing 10 lbs which dammit, after three children and 8 years of no sleep, I will achieve in 2017! Come hell or high water!

Happy New Year to you all.

Haunted.

Her image is burned in my memory.  Smiling and appearing happy.

How do you reconcile that image with the next one of her coffin being lowered into the cold ground?

How do you move on when a colleague, a classmate, a friend, a mother is taken from this life in a moment of violence?

How do you stop thinking and imagining what those final moments of her life were like? Did death come quickly? Did she suffer? Was she afraid?

How do you honor her memory when now the focus is on the man accused of her murder? Purple arm bands and purple pins just seem so futile.

How do we ensure justice is served?

 

#SayHerName

For Dr. Elana Fric

And every single woman in this world who has been a victim of violence.

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This week I am wearing purple every day to honor my colleague, my classmate, a mother, an advocate, a runner, a friend.

My heart aches.

The Best Post That Never Was.

My three-year-old has this annoying habit of waking up every single night for some reason or another. Usually its for another sippy cup of milk, or to go to the bathroom (we are in the midst of toilet training).  Last night was no exception.  After getting him the milk, helping him with his pull up, he insisted I sleep with him.  It was 4:30 am and rather than fight, I succumbed and crawled into bed with him.

As I was drifting off to sleep, scratching his back, I suddenly had a great idea for a blog post. I had the title and everything. I briefly considered getting up to write it down but thought, “Nah, I’ll remember.”

Dammit.

I don’t remember what the idea was.

It was so brilliant, I swear it was. It was going to mark my comeback to the blogging world.

I thought if I started writing it would come back to me. It hasn’t.

Dammit.

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Starting From Scratch, Again

It’s been a while.

Let’s just say 2015 hasn’t been the greatest year for running.

I missed most of the winter running due to family issues. My dad got sick and life got busy.  And I got lazy, let’s be perfectly honest. After the 1/2 marathon, one year ago today actually, I felt like I was in the best shape of my life. But that race really tired me out and physically my body needed a break even if my mind wouldn’t listen.  I got shin splints again and benched myself over Christmas. With my dad’s illness, it was hard to get motivated to run and when you don’t run regularly, the -17C temperatures certainly don’t invite you out.  So, I sat on my couch. I cross-stitched and ate what I wanted and gained back a few pounds.

Finally, I got some motivation and started running again in February or March, at this point it’s all a blur.  It was literally like starting from scratch.  Suddenly I was slow again and dealing with stupid aches and pains.  I had stopped the weight training as well and everything seemed harder.

Race-wise, I made the decision earlier in the year not to repeat any race I had done in 2015.  I planned all new races.  I did the Ride for Heart 5K, the Waterfront 10K, the  Womens’ 10K, the Beaches Jazz Run 5k and the Toronto 10-miler (16K).  None of these races were personal bests, or personal records for that matter.  I just went out and had fun. My training has sucked on and off all year.  Shin splints, groin aches, work-life, you name it there was a reason why I didn’t run regularly.

My weight has creeped up a bit this last month or so as I had to bench myself, yet again, due to wickedly painful posterior shin splints. It’s such a constant battle.  I took two weeks off before my last race, the Scotiabank 5k.  My shins felt okay and since I had started cross training on the stationary bike, I hadn’t lost any ground on my fitness.  Looking at the race photos, the weight gain is super obvious to me and it really bugs me. No one else would probably notice it but we are our own worst critics.

I decided today, on this 1 year anniversary of my first 1/2 marathon, that I will run that race again next year.  Come hell or high water.  I am going to do my utmost to keep up with cross-training and weights. Wish me luck!

 

‘SUP!

Almost 4 years ago to the day, me and 3 other women took a Stand-Up Paddleboard (herein, SUP) lesson.  I had no idea what this meant.  Two of the women had done it before I think and when I was invited I thought, “Sure, why not.”

I had the best time.  For someone who doesn’t swim much and really isn’t a very strong swimmer, it was a bit scary being out on the lake but with my life jacket and tethered to the board, I felt pretty safe.  I fell off a lot that day.  But I also stayed on longer than I ever thought and I totally loved it.

Then three years went by and although I had fleeting thoughts of renting a board or even buying one, it just never happened.  Last summer, while on vacation with my family, one of my girlfriends came up for a few days to the cottage we were renting and brought her SUP board.  I got on, fell off a few times, then found my footing and loved it all over again.

Most of the last year I kept telling my husband on and off that I wanted to get a board, or at least rent a board for our cottage vacation this summer.

Why rent when you can buy?

And that’s what I did. I don’t feel too guilty about it as my birthday is in a few weeks. 😉

Husband went to the local SUP store with our daughter yesterday afternoon and scoped the scene, talked with the shop owner and then after work we went back.

I am the proud owner of an inflatable SUP board.

This is what it looks like inflated.

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I am so excited!!! Hoping to take it out later after work today.

Countdown.

5 signs it’s time for a vacation.

  1. You’d rather sleep in than go for a run.
  2. You have no idea what day of the week it is and don’t care to find out.
  3. Listening to your patient with a laundry list of complaints causes you to start daydreaming of the lake.
  4. You stop caring. Period.
  5. You start marking an ‘X’ on every calendar you see until the day it’s time to leave for vacation.

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