Vice Grip.

The piercing pain on the right side of my head woke me up.

Here we go again, I thought.

“Maaaaama! Poo-poo bum! I hugry. Want bekfast”

“Ugh ….”, I moaned.

I got out of bed, stumbled on a toy which made my head feel like it was going to explode. As I walked by his room, he held out his sippy cup and I took it. I made it down the stairs, to the kitchen, where I filled his cup with milk.  Giving it back to him at the gate of his door, I patted him on the head and turned on his light just a little bit.

“Mommy going to take a shower, you stay here and play quietly.”

I fumbled in the dark for the shower curtain and pulled it aside as I took off my clothes. The water’s coolness on my hand caused me to shiver and as turned the shower heads on, I stepped in to the cold rain on my head.  I started shivering immediately and sat down under the stream of water.  I hugged my knees and rocked back and forth waiting for the pain to subside.  Eventually I felt it lift a bit and turned the temperature of the water up.  The shivers stopped.  My head felt better. I could hear squealing and laughing coming from the hallway.  Everyone was up.

I lay back down in the bathtub.

Five more minutes, kids.

Mommy needs just five more minutes.

Summer – Finally!

As far as I’m concerned, summer has arrived.  I’m wearing sandals, the kids need sunscreen, the city’s splash pads are open.  It’s summer.

Over the weekend, my eldest achieved another milestone.  Riding a two-wheeler!!  Such a proud, proud moment for her and for me.  In the span of, literally, 10-15 minutes she went from being wobbly, unsteady and unsure to a confident, sturdy rider. It was incredible to watch.  We went to a local park which happens to have a skateboard area and she went to town with her little scooter, tackling the ramps like a pro.  My heart stopped a few times watching her fall but those elbow, knee and wrist pads came in handy.  Her poor little legs are all scraped up and bruised.  She is such a tough little girl.

The baby started clapping!  Oh my goodness, it was so spontaneous and hilarious.  He was so proud of himself, but more so probably because of my squeal of delight when he did it.

I got in a few runs this past weekend.  I’ve forgotten how difficult it can be to run in the summertime.  I will have to start carrying water with me.  The migraine headaches have been brutal post-run.

I love running along the trail.  I am so fortunate to live be able to live in the city and yet have the woods so close that I can run to get there.

download5 download6  I may have started a coaching program on one of my running apps to help me get to my 10 km goal.  I know I wrote last week that I wasn’t going to focus on distance or speed but I am who I am and I really want to be able to run 10km. So, the program told me I needed to run 6.4km on the weekend.  It suggested a 1:1 interval but I did my usual 3:1 intervals but took time to stretch when I needed it and walked when I was supposed to.  I ended up doing 6.38km which was great but really felt it in my hamstrings the next day – likely from some exuberant post-run stretching. I don’t plan on following the program all that closely, especially when it expects me to run 12 km in two weeks. Say whut?  That’s a huge jump and not something I’m going to risk re-injury for. I will take its suggestions with a large grain of salt.

I ran yesterday, 4.23 km instead of the 2 km walk that was suggested for me and today the app wants me to run 6.44 km again.  Yeah, not gonna happen. Instead I rode my bike into work. Cross training is better than no training, right?

Overall, I have to say, it’s been a fantastic start to the summer.  I love the heat and you will not hear me complain about the humidity, unless it gives me a raging migraine.  Then, all bets are off!

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I need new running shorts that don’t bunch up in the thighs. Capri tights are far too hot to run in!

 

 

 

Healing.

Heal – to restore or be restored to health

I am on the mend.  After my physiotherapy appointment earlier in the week, I managed to get in two back-to-back runs and one “long” run today.  The first two runs were 3k and 4k, respectively.  Today’s “long” run was 5.25km.  I put long in quotations because it’s hardly what marathon runners would consider their long run, but for this gal, it was a long run.  It felt like a long run.

It’s amazing how fast my endurance decreased after not running for 8 days.  It’s getting better, slowly but surely.  And so is the Achilles tendon.  I have been doing my heel raises religiously and icing it after my runs.  I can still feel that it’s irritated, but much less so than a week ago.

It feels great to be getting back to work on my 10k goal.  Sadly though, I don’t think it’ll happen before April 1.  If I push for it, I will likely get injured again.  So for now, I am not setting the goal but will just take it one run at a time and see how I do.

I see my running as fulfilling two goals.  One is to get physically fit; the other is to stay mentally fit.  Maternity leave has left my brain a bit mushy.  Mostly from the lack of sleep but also from the fact that I haven’t really thought about medicine in the past five months.  It’s been a good mental break but the time has come to exercise my brain.

But first I must rid myself of this awful migraine.  This is one of my favorite photos depicting what its like to suffer from migraine headaches.

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On Migraines and Breastfeeding

It’s been a rough weekend, I can’t lie. I have been plagued with migraine headaches for the past 5 days. I have taken more Advil, Tylenol and Axert in the last 5 days than I have in the last 5 months. Brutal. It’s gotten me down too.  I hate having the ice pack on my head so much that my kids now ask me if I have a headache again.  I don’t want their early memories of mommy being plagued by migraines.

Yet, during one of the reprieves I managed a 6.6km run, so I guess it wasn’t that bad of a weekend. But the headache that ensued a few hours later was brutal and made me wish I hadn’t gone out when I was feeling better.

My girlfriend made me an aromatherapy rub a few months ago which I forgot about until this weekend. My tummy felt icky after all the drugs I took so I decided to try the rub. Oh my. It was amazing. I’m not sure what was in it but it left a paradoxical cooling heat on my forehead that took the pain away for a good half hour.  Those 30 minutes were a nice taste of heaven.

I can’t help but wonder what’s caused this sudden increase in migraine frequency. I suspect it’s a change in my hormones. The baby is all but weaned. I might nurse him once a day now. I’m finding it much more difficult to let it go this time. Part of me wants to keep nursing him because I’m never going to be able to do it again once we are done.  But on the other hand my vanity sets in and I really want to see the last 10 lbs gone (the sooner the better) and I like to think that it’ll fall off once I stop nursing for good. I wish it wasn’t so hard. I’ve really enjoyed the nursing relationship we’ve had but I know it’s time to wrap things up. He is taking his formula really well and starting to eat some rice cereal but not as often as I’d like.  And I am back to work in 6 weeks.

It’s time.

Migraine

Definition (from: PubMed Health) – A migraine is a common type of headache that may occur with symptoms such as    nausea, vomiting, or sensitivity to light. In many people, a throbbing pain is felt only on one side of the head.  Some people who get migraines have warning symptoms, called an aura, before the actual headache begins. An aura is a group of symptoms, including vision disturbances, that are a warning sign that a bad headache is coming.

I get migraines.

I get them in clusters lasting 3-4 days, usually once a month.  I am currently in the midst of a cycle of migraine.  I’m on day three and have already taken more than the recommended daily dose of my  triptan.  I’m contemplating another dose, just to get through the day.   While husband works on the movie score, son is napping and daughter is watching Toy Story, I sit here in front of my laptop trying to focus on something other than the tip of the knife I can feel starting to tickle my left eyeball.  The migraines used to migrate – sometimes the pain would be behind my right eye, sometimes on the side of my head, sometimes behind the left eye.  For the last few years though, the migraines have been pretty consistent – behind the left eye.  I don’t get aura, but sometimes a tension headache starts and it “transforms” into the migraine. I do get nauseated, and loud noises bother me.  Usually a dark room, cold compress and sleep help.  But more often the not, I just need to get through the 3-4 days, then the cycle breaks and I’m good for a month.

The only time I can remember when I didn’t get a migraine for a good stretch of time was during my pregnancies. The first three months were brutal, I got lots of them and since I couldn’t take the triptan, I would have to resort to ice-cold showers (which work amazingly well, I might add). But a switch flipped during the second trimester and I would be headache free until about a month postpartum.  Those 7 months were the best!!  It was one of the reasons I loved being pregnant – the migraines stopped.

Heaven.
Bliss.
Relief.
Hmm….