Injured. Am I really a Runner now?

I most definitely have a bad case of Posterior Shin Splints, and now, the Anterior Shin Splints are making themselves known.

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I had an x-ray and ultrasound of both my lower legs earlier in the week and not surprisingly, they tests were normal.  There is no obvious stress fracture, no periosteal reaction, the calf muscles looked pretty good (really good, actually) and there were no obvious tears seen.

Yet, I feel like I’m a mess.

The legs hurt more today than they did two days ago.

Oh, and I forgot to mention that I started riding my bike to and from work.  I need to keep exercising, I need to keep moving.  The bike ride is 20 minutes. About 5-6 km each way. It’s a great way to start the day.

But it’s not the same as running.

I see my physiotherapist on Friday.

I have to wonder how much of this is due to “too much too soon”, worn out shoes, the fact that I am almost 8 months postpartum and still carrying 15 lbs of extra weight.  Could the effects of those pregnancy hormones (to loosen ligaments) be making my legs weaker?

Am I just grasping at straws?

Do I need new shoes?  Do I need stability shoes or shoes with more cushion? Why do they make 500 kinds of shoes? Am I overpronating or supinating?

Why can’t this be easy?

Why can’t I just run without pain?

My girlfriend who runs told me I am likely going to need 6 weeks off running.

SIX WEEKS?????

She said I’m officially a runner now. Being injured is the badge of honor.

Great.

This sucks.

Injuries Can Suck It!

Last week, I ran almost 10km in two runs.  The first was just over 4km, the second was a run home from the office via a different route that took me to 6km.  That was on Thursday.  My legs ached a bit – that damn shin splint or soleus muscle strain or posterior tibialis stress syndrome – whatever it is, I don’t know for sure, but it ached the entire run.  I stretched and iced when I got home. Friday if felt okay, Saturday the same.  So, being the stubborn pain in the ass that I am, after I did 5km on the stationary bike, I decided to go out for a run.

I was forced to shut it down at 1.5km. Sharp, searing pain in the left calf/shin/whatever the fuck hurts.

Sorry for the curse words.

I am so, so frustrated with myself.  I have continued to run despite being injured.  I thought I was gaining some headway, taking rest days and icing even on days I didn’t run.

But no.  I have truly screwed myself this time.

It hurts now just to walk.  I carried the baby to the park in the Baby Bjorn and my lower legs are on fire now.  I don’t think I will be running again for quite some time.

I am the proverbial doctor who is a bad patient.

I am pretty sure I need either an x-ray to rule out bilateral stress fractures in the tibia, or an ultrasound to rule out tears in the soleus muscle. Or both. With my luck, both.

Is this what I get for running too soon after having a baby?  Are my ligaments and joints still in pregnancy mode?

What is going on????

I’m so defeated by this.  If I can’t run, I don’t know what I’ll do.  Sure, I can bike to and from work. I can get on the stationary bike at home and do my pilates and floor exercises to stay in shape. But that’s not the same as running. It’s just not.

Sorry for the debby downer post.  I am trying to look on the bright side here – but I’m not sure there is one.

Yesterday my husband, who is a fair-weather runner and hasn’t run in months, went out and ran 6km like it was nothing. Really?  I guess I just need to remember this: